First Post

It's about a week before I'll know for sure if I'm really pregnant. I'm hoping I am. Not only because we are ready for another baby but because I've been so grouchy and moody. It would be great to have an excuse for my terrible behavior. I haven't had trouble sleeping though, as I was with Ana around this time. But, I have been hungry in the morning, which isn't typical.

I don't feel right and so it seems to me that I am pregnant. But, it has never been that easy for us and this is the first month we are actually trying to get pregnant. It took four months with Caleb, six with Baby #2, and six more for Ana. That actually doesn't seem like a very long time now, but at the time, it seemed like an eternity.

If I am pregnant, I'm sure I'll have lots of great stories to tell about my crazy emotional outbursts, like with Caleb. I held it together pretty well with Ana. I don't have any funny stories to tell yet though. I can only tell about the arguments Shane and I have been getting into about finding a house to buy. And about how I've been on the verge of tears a few times in the past few days because "This just isn't fun anymore!" and "You're not listening to me when I say I don't want to live in Carmel Valley!" and "We don't even want the same thing, so we should just give up now!".

And if you knew that we just recently got a realtor and haven't even looked at houses with her, you'd know how ridiculous that last argument is.

Oh man. I really hope I'm pregnant.

Moving

Now that I'm not trying to hide this baby, I'm moving things over to my regular blog

My Name Is Mommy

See you over there!

Nighttime Nausea

For the past week or so, I get slightly nauseous and lose my appetite around 4 or 5 p.m. It's not so bad that I can't actually eat, but it does prevent me from actually enjoying my food. And tonight I was supposed to make spaghetti because yesterday I was craving spaghetti with cottage cheese on the side. But the thought of it makes me want to run to the bathroom, so I can't bring myself to cook it. Thankfully, Shane has no problem eating soup for dinner. If this continues, I might have to start making dinner around 3 p.m. before I lose my appetite. My mom sent some Hawaii-made soda crackers (my favorite!), so I'll probably have some of that tonight for dinner.

I've been sleeping pretty good lately though. That is, when Shane isn't trying to shove his pillow on my side of the bed and snore in my ear! Oh, and when Caleb doesn't wake me up at 1 a.m. to tell me his hand is stinky because he had to scratch his butt (gross!).

First Appointment - A Success!!

We saw the tiny heart beating! It was so wonderful! I didn't cry though because I knew before we got there that the baby was okay. I've been so sleepy and just knew that I was still pregnant. Poor Shane was still very worried though, but I can understand since he can't feel things like I can.

The arm legs and buds aren't visible in this picture. The doctor said that is because this is a side shot. The head is on the bottom and the umbilical cord is shooting off to the left.

Caleb was so cute! As the doctor was getting ready to do her thing, he told her "Don't hurt her, okay? You have to be careful." Oh my gosh! It was the cutest thing ever!

This Kaiser office that I'm going to does things a little different than the one in Manassas. I'll be going to another appointment next Thursday and then will have appointments every month after that. I'm hoping that I'll get more pictures though, hopefully one with a good shot of the arm and leg buds!

A Short Update

My irregular sleep pattern is back! But, I'm actually relieved because that means everything is okay with the baby. I can't wait for the appointment next week so I can stop worrying so much that something bad will happen. I just can't help it. But actually, everyday I am feeling more and more like this one will stick. So, I'm not worrying *that* much. Anyhoo, I can't eat green olives anymore. Now I have a thing for soda, which is definitely out of the ordinary cause I never drink soda. I've been buying the natural fruit flavored soda at Whole Foods. It's actually cheaper than the generic fruit soda at Giant. And Caleb is loving my new craving since we've never given him more than a sip of soda and I now give him half a can everyday. I'm also losing my taste for coffee.

I know, not so exciting, huh? I was a lot more emotional with the other two pregnancies, which made for funny stories. But there's still time for that :)

Got My Mojo Back... for now...

This morning I woke up refreshed. I can't remember the last time this happened. And just yesterday I was telling Shane how I didn't have the motivation to do anything but sit on the couch and space out. Normally, I would be trying to come up with something to do, something to accomplish. He was lucky that I made him a pot of beef stew for lunch. That's pretty much all I had accomplished yesterday. But this morning! I'm awake! I'm motivated! I've already started the laundry, made a list for the grocery store, and put together a bunch of packages that I need to mail out.

I'm going to resist the urge to wonder if something is wrong.

I Couldn't Take It Anymore!

Three times last week I couldn't fall asleep until 1 or 2 a.m., despite being totally exhausted. So, I did a quick search on the Internet and learned that it's pretty common to experience insomnia in the first trimester. Although, many of the articles suggested it was because many woman take long naps during the day and throw their sleep schedule off. But since I'm lucky to get a nap that lasts an hour and a half, that isn't the case with me. I read somewhere else that it has to do with all the hormones in the body and this makes more sense to me. Anyhoo, I got some Unisom (sleeping pills) because many of the woman said they took these and it helped and also I remembered Joanna had to take these for morning sickness. So, I didn't bother to call Kaiser to check if it was okay. Cause it is. I took one of the pills at about 8:30 p.m. last night and fell asleep at around 9:30 p.m. This is a fairly significant event since I can't remember the last time I went to sleep before 10:30 p.m. And besides getting up to go to the bathroom three times and Caleb trying to wake up at 5 a.m., I slept through the night! I fell asleep very quickly after each of these events! The down side is that there were moments where I was tossing and turning and felt very agitated from intense dreams, none of which I can remember. I told Shane this and he said I was actually talking in my sleep, which I never do. And this is always a scary thing because when you talk in your sleep you can't ensure discretion. But all I said apparently was, "Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!" Maybe I was having a nightmare? I probably won't be using these every night. But I'm glad I have them to fall back onto if things start getting bad again.